Stop!

So i've been moping and feeling pity for myself over the past week. And finally today i decided to get my butt off the chair and take a walk; and i gained a little perspective.

I got to stop beating myself up over losing out to other people. I know when it comes to applications and research, i suck. And that's the end of the story. No more comparison, no more kiasuism. I shall no longer feel bad about myself because i've really tried my best and that's all anyone could do.

I got to count my blessings - the fact that i've come this far without a penny from my parents' pocket, the fact that i have someone whom i trust absolutely, or the fact that i still have all my arms and legs and am losing weight without even trying.

Damn it, enough of self hatred already!