Been digging around for a while in my self-reflection, but have yet figured out what i did wrong, or in what way i am inferior.
It feels like trying to remember whether or not you've left the house door unlocked. Or looking into the dance studio mirror to scan your body flaws.
Xs said i always second guess myself, which is very true. I always tend to scrutinize too deeply the things i lack, while forgetting to count my everyday blessings. But to change my perspective is easier said than done.
I wish i could stop comparing myself to others. To mr. O this is a very unoriginal, and very singaporean phenotype. Ask them to do some project, he said, and they would immediately check to see what other groups are doing, then start to follow suit with a little bit of modification. His remarks alarmed me, cos i never realized i've become one of the many. Unidentifiable from the homogeneous crowd.
I believe to be original is to be sure of oneself. To feel certain that one's idea is unique and, in some ways, insuperable. Again, easier said than done.
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well first things first it's second guess yourself, not second doubt yourself.
comparing yourself to others doesn't make you unoriginal, but copying what others do because you feel insecure is [unoriginal]. you might be insecure (tho i don't know why you should be!) but you don't copy others.
therefore there is an association between being original and being self-confident, but it's not a 100% link like being original means being sure of yourself. related, but not 100%.
(that said, i'm every bit as neurotic as you when it comes to self-doubt!!!) xxxxx
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