The road less traveled

It all seems like yesterday, when i was in junior college and thought i had a world of opportunities. I was so sure then that by 30, i'm gonna do something great, be someone of importance and glamour.

Before long, i have been driven down a concrete path. And there isn't any glamour in it.

I realise now that as a kid, i've been so misguided. I was taught to see glamour in the lives of einstein, thomas edison and the likes, and follow their footstep. It's so ridiculous now. No doubt such a naive idea predisposed me to pain and disappointment.

And that was the road laid out for me. The supposedly glamourous one, where life-changing inventions await. I didn't bother looking for another one less traveled.

If i were to go back to 5 years old, perhaps i'd want to learn the greatness in a banking job, or such-like corporate positions. Then i'd have a much more comfortable life now. If i were to go back to 18 years old, i'd want to have the strength to resist following einstein's lead and go straight into medicine.

But i can't change any of that. The road less traveled was always open to me actually. I just didn't see it.

Detective conan

Its my new addiction.

The series clicks with me because it's about crime investigation. No, not the CSI kind where everyone wears lab coat and pretends they're doing DNA sequencing or whatever crap that's supposed to be cutting edge forensic science. The logical deduction kind. The old-fashioned sherlock holmes style of investigation, which to me is wayyy cooler.

I like it also for its simplicity in characters. Gone are the complicated personas you often see nowadays in primetime shows, the ones with abusive upbringing, the fallen heroes, the good-willed killer. The anime characters here are simple to the point of predictability. Good guys are good, bad guys bad; good guys will win over bad guys. Watching conan is the much-needed antidote to my jaded, pessimistic, cynical mind.

So i devote this entry to this over-10-year-long series.

I'm back

This blog has been inactive for a long long time, simply bcos i myself have not been using my brain much. Well not all of my brain, bcos i could still carry out labwork and dance and other activities. But the domain responsible for critical thinking (read, whining on blogs) was dead all this time. It seems like in order to concentrate on performing everyday chores efficiently, destructive thinking has got to be switched off.

Ive had an eventful month. Especially in the workplace.

Okie so what about the workplace? Well, i kinda started off on the wrong foot last yr, and have been trying to make up for that slowly and painfully. Recently a young attachment student joined the lab (the clueless guy i mentioned previously) and pissed off everyone royally. With his bad grooming behavior (no bathing and loud chewing), his prada shirt and leather shoes, and his spilling EtBr waste, no wonder he became the outcast. The "bad guy" title went to him without a doubt. So when i became a victim of his passive aggression and stalking, i immediately rose to the lab's throne of united sympathy. Aha!

That didn't smooth everything out of course. Me and mr O still had rough patches. It's already difficult to please someone bitter and sarcastic, and i didn't bother trying. I hated it even more when he tried to be nice to me. I found it such an unnecessary and counter-productive effort. His nice-ness to me seemed nothing more than a ploy to whip me to work hard. I believe one day i'll find it in my heart to realise his kindness, to which i've been blinded by my conceived ideas; but that day is not today.

Anyhow, alas, it has come to an end! My one year slaving away in the lab! Think of all those times i was stuck with the facs machine till 11 at night, wanting to bang my head against the wall. Those time i sat at my desk bored to tears, dying to get out. I'm so glad a chapter of my life that's so dark and depressing has closed now.

If knowledge is power, withholding knowledge is greater power.