Destructive thinking

I'm in the thinking mode again, you know the kinda mode where your thoughts won't go away, they just swoop down into your brain and flood your neural circuits until you can't make any sense out of anything anymore. So you lose the motivation to do constructive things, even eating and drinking, and you just stare. And think.

If you watch I heart Huckabees, there's a scene where the two protagonists beat each other on the head with a huge plastic balloon until they stop thinking. I need one of those balloons.

People always make me curious. Like how many of them, when asked about their profession, would somehow try to steer the conversation away from the topic at hand by making a lame joke, or refering to their family and hobbies instead. I don't know what their reason is but if i have to venture a guess, i'd say it's because they think their profession would bore the listener. And that may be because they themselves are sick of their daytime jobs in the first place. I guess to them, the job is merely something society expects of them to do to put food on the table. I, on the other hand, think my work is my life. It shapes the way i dress and address, molds my personality, and affects even my deeper character traits. Maybe i'm being overly serious, or maybe i'm just going through a phase, but i believe my life wouldn't be half as worth living if my work sucks like hell.

Or like how there are so many hidden meanings in an everyday interpersonal discourse it's mind-boggling to interpret and extrapolate. From the very first instance of the meeting, judgement begins (i formerly thought i was among the extremists when it comes to judging others, but apparently everyone does it to about the same extent as mine). Then it's followed by escalating expectation and series of attempts to meet, or to defy those expectations. There's also trust and cynicism - variables that no one could easily predict. How do i judge others just the right amount so that my mind still opens to further possibilities? How do i not give myself away by trusting too much, without sliding up the cynicism scale?

I like to observe people, i think an ability to read minds is both useful and cool. But lately, i have misinterpreted other people's hidden signals more often than i'd wish. It's quite unfortunate really... but i don't know how to learn from it.